Motherhood Addicted To Crack Cocaine

Indya had a long running problem with addiction, “I was addicted to, more” Indya said, “by more I mean more men or boys depending on the age at the time … more attention … more Weed, more Alcohol more Ecstasy, more Crack Cocaine, more Meth, more Oxycontin, more PCP, more of whatever kind of drugs you had.”

The Start

Throughout her addiction her relationships with her mom and other family members where greatly affected. She started lying, staying out late and manipulating those around her.

“Using affected my relationship with my daughter because I wasn’t there,” she said “I didn’t care about myself, how could I care about anyone else?”

Indya used Crack Cocaine for the first time on her 18th birthday.

“My aunt was supposed to get me powdered Cocaine, she was a Crack user so she swindled me.”

Indya was “drunk and messed up” already, she decided to do it with some persuasion from her aunt and boyfriend at the time, who had tried it before.

“I was hooked. I lost my car, I lost my job, I lost everything. I ended up staying with my aunt in this Crack house.”

Passing the Breaking Point

Indya’s health started to decline, due to her crack cocaine use she became very thin. Other parts of her life were changing just as dramatically, she had nothing and no one.

“I threw the crack pipe against the mirror in the room I was staying in. I broke down, on my knees I asked god to help me … I had become, this, this, thing.”

After talking with her mom, she sent Indya the means to come stay with her in Arizona. This would be the first time she got clean.

“Then I started smoking Weed and drinking. So I was still using, but I didn’t know anything about recovery,” she said.

Indya got into rehab but like many, she relapsed. When she started using Meth Indya became extremely paranoid.

“I was, completely, delirious and delusional. I couldn’t function anymore. But I asked for help and I got the help I needed.”

Power of Prayer

The last time Indya attempted to use was with someone she met off of Craigslist.

“It was a party and plaything basically. I … I had prayed that night, earlier, for God to not let me get high because I had just left a recovery function,” Indya explained.

The wheels in her head were already turning and her addiction was ignited because she had been at a casino, then she called the guy to meet up.

“I couldn’t get high … I tried all night to get high but I couldn’t. I couldn’t physically use the dope.”

In the morning when she had to leave, the guy was upset because she was so focused on trying to get high that the “play” aspect of the meeting never happened.

“I locked myself in the bathroom, I was trying to use. I couldn’t use, I couldn’t light it, it just wouldn’t work.”

Frustrated, she ended up taking the drug with her and trying to use again when she was down the street.

Indya had been trying to get into rehab and get help for a mental illness she also suffers from for some time but was unable to because she didn’t have insurance. Sitting behind a dumpster she prayed to God to help her get out of her situation and turn her life around.

“I called Community Bridges … and they said ‘Well you have ACCESS (insurance)’ that was a sign to me, to be honest, that this was my last chance. All of this time I had no insurance and I was trying to get into treatment.”

Community Bridges, a rehab in Phoenix, sent someone to pick her up.

“I went there even though I was paranoid still. I was nervous about what these other people were going to think about me and I had just stole from this guy … I didn’t know if he was a rapist of a killer or someone who was going to come after me. I just went in faith.”

Indya took having insurance as a sign that her higher power was still with her and she was not alone.

“Why am I continuing to do this? Sitting there trying light this dope and expunging all my energy and all my, all my, everything. Into this shit? No. So I went in faith.”

Indya got into treatment and stayed in treatment.

“That doesn’t mean everything went butterflies and rainbows from there, because it didn’t … but I didn’t use.” she said.

She’s been clean for 10 months now and says it is starting to get easier.

“It’s starting to look like butterflies and rainbows to be honest, and that’s because I’m taking the time and putting the work in. Because I have faith, I’m not giving up, I know it is better on the other side. As long as I don’t pick up and get high, I can’t make it worse.”

Indya is living at home with her mother and daughter and has a job working in recovery.

“I get to direct people, I help them find the help that they need. I know what that’s like,” she said “I know what that starting point feels like because I’ve been there. There is hope, there’s opportunity, and as long as you want it it’s there.”

Indya is passionate about helping others find their way, “I don’t believe in no … when it comes to recovery. If it’s something you need for recovery, don’t take no for an answer.”

  1. It’s great to see folks sharing their experiences. It helps other sufferers see they are not alone and get insight on how they, too, can recover.

  2. Blessed you baby for allowing your truth to inspire some one that needs that encouragement too seek the help they also need an keep your faith with God and ur determination and strength to keep pushing on too better ur self I love u and soo proud of you baby ur a fighter whether you belive it or not you are an the creator has big plans for u be patient and stand tall soo proud of you from your aunt tarenia baby I will pray for ur strength and determination to win ameen

  3. Wow, that’s really looks like a miracle, even when she wanted to get high, it’s not working again. Thank God he himself saved her. I pray we all meet our higher power some day

  4. Indiya’s story is very touching. Addiction really had effect on her to the point of having health decline. I am very happy that Indiya is now recovering to get her life back.

  5. Addiction starts with little lies and keeping late out before finally leading to uncontrollable actions that affects loved ones around. Thank God he saved a life, I am so happy

  6. This story further proves and shows the negative effect of addiction on human life. Indiya’s aunt got her into crack addiction which led to her broken relationship with her child and family. Glad the followed the path to recovery and is now finding happiness.

    1. Her story reveal to us some of the side effects of drug abuse. It led to her broken relationship. This is an educative information.

  7. This is a very pathetic story. Indiya’s addiction had a lot of of consequences on her. Glad she took the step to recovery.

  8. Just a simple prayer for God’s help really did work . One one knows it’s high time to ask for help , that’s a sign we needed a change we can’t give ourselves

  9. This is just miracle I swear, the insurance she thought she didn’t have later showed. When it’s time to change and recover, things start working for us. It’s a sign

  10. It gladdens my heart when I see people come out to share their life experiences and how God has seen past the stage of addiction and all thanks to detox for all they do as well

  11. Indya’s case is a touching story and definitely one to learn from. Addictions to drugs and the likes are just the easiest pathway to more regrets. Get sober and see the huge difference.

  12. There’s so much power in prayers and I love the fact that it really worked. When you meet the higher power your problem on earth become so small.

  13. It’s a good thing people are sharing their story. Others who suffers from addiction will be able to draw inspiration from them

  14. I love Indya’s determination to stop drugs and be a better person. With this kind of attitude towards her new life she will definitely go far. Way to go Indya

  15. By reading your story I learn how difficult to sober,and the biggest hope is you Found God,God Will guide you for the right path, after all bad situation you now sober I don’t hope you relapse in the future, keep sober guys

  16. You are great Blessed are you. you from your aunt tarenia baby I will pray for ur strength and determination to win ameen. Thanks for sharing this blog.

  17. This is addiction is a no no. Sure it has perks but that is temporary. It lures you and makes you into a slave. The moment you notice it is too late. Drugs or being in it is a battle. It ruins everything but the irony is people still are lured to it.

  18. Yeah it is good to see you loving yourself now because it is very true that being under an influence of drugs or any addiction proves to be on a cause of destruction mastermind by oneself and I also can say one did not like himself or herself. Happy you’re safe now. Thanks you detox as you always choose to spread touching story that will change many lives on this course.

  19. Indya’s story is one of so many out there but thank God for the power of prayer and the determination to be free from addiction. Detox to rehab thank you for sharing this amazing story of recovery.

  20. I find it strange that despite having her mother at her side, her aunt managed to manipulate her and introduced such kind of addictive substances to her life. I think her bad relationship with her mom caused her to avoid discussing this with her mom initially.

  21. There is absolutely nothing as potent as prayer, Thanks for sharing your store. This could really inspire the life’s of those that think their life’s is finished dues to the use of drug

  22. One of the most important thing in determining the future is decided by the type of environment and upbringing you have got. You have recovered is great thing to know.

  23. This story is well inspiring. I must commend you for sharing it for others to learn and encourage them on this bold step and to rediscover themselves.

  24. While working towards recovery, the importance of prayer cannot but be overemphasized. It’s great seeing Indya being a motivator to others.

  25. Indya experience was a terrible one. Her aunt being an addict too didn’t help issue. She lost so many things, her job, cars and others.
    She resumed treatment and she is now sound.

  26. You will find it so difficult to take care of yourself not to talk of taking care of others when you are into addict. You will lost virtually most things in your lifetime. Let say no to drug abuse. Thank God she was able to recover from her formal way of life

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