Depending on Drugs and Alcohol to Live
True Stories of Addiction: Megan
Megan grew up loving sports, hanging out with the boys and was not afraid to get down in the dirt. Despite the fun she had, when she was hanging out with the boys, they would often ask her if she was a boy, and it really messed with her head. This caused her to feel the need to be loved and accepted by someone other than herself. She felt as though she wasn’t good enough and her parents getting a divorce did not help the fact she was feeling alone.
With her parents neglecting her and her two brothers, she needed to step in and become the “mom” and didn’t have time to work on herself like she needed. Since Megan did not have any time she desired to become the woman she wanted, she needed an escape from life, and sought it in drugs and alcohol.
Drugs and Alcohol is what Mattered
Though Megan had class, sports functions and practice, she would carry around her water bottle to ensure she would stay drunk for the day. While living with a roommate, Megan was not making the money she needed to support her alcohol and drug habit so she decided to steal from her roommate. Things did not turn out in her favor so she was asked to leave. This, in turn, caused Megan to lose her scholarships she worked so hard on getting.
Lost and confused about what to do since she lost her scholarships, Megan now based her life around alcohol. She would ask herself if she can drink before she attends a function or meet ups such as work and family events, while she is there and after. If where she was attending didn’t live up to her standards, she would leave or not show. Even if she was to show up, she wouldn’t really be there because she was so taken back by the drugs and alcohol.
The Consequences of Abusing Drugs and Alcohol
Megan ended up getting pregnant with her baby boy. In her heart, she wanted nothing but a beautiful life for this boy; she didn’t want him growing up with the type of parents she did and she was going to protect him from such trauma. She thought having her son would fix her or make her life better- she put in everything she had, but couldn’t be the parent she wanted to be, because of her addiction.
No matter how hard Megan tried to be the parent she wanted to be, the drugs and alcohol took precedence in her life. The negativity caught up with her and she ended up getting into some trouble. She got into an accident, received a DUI and everything worth living for was ripped from her. She lost her son and boyfriend, was evicted from her place of residence and her truck was smashed into a million pieces.
She was living to die; nothing mattered to Megan but the drugs and alcohol. She was alone and wasn’t sure if life was worth living anymore. Eventually the heroin, meth and pills caught up to her and she couldn’t use enough anymore. No drug or drink was going to give her the desired effect she needed. It got to the point she could drink a fifth of vodka and not get drunk. This, after some time, caused Megan to hit a spiritual and life bottom.
Drug and Alcohol Treatment
When Megan went into treatment she stayed as long as they would allow. She went to every meeting and every class she could to ensure she would stay sober. Then, she was introduced to the 12-step program and got a sponsor immediately – she took all suggestions the people told her and was willing to do the work the 12-step program requires.
Megan did not want to die anymore; she knew she was worth living and deserved the best life she could have. 12-step meetings became her happy place and she started to meet new and wonderful people; she started living again. Even though she is living life on a spiritual basis, Megan still has her rough days. In those days, Megan does not want to take a drink or put a drug into her body. She knows going down that path is not worth the life she has built for herself today.
Megan cannot encourage enough the idea of asking for help. She asked for help and it saved her life, she is living again. She can never imagine turning back to the life she was living. No drug or drink is worth the life she has today. Megan will go to any lengths to save her sobriety and wants you to experience this feeling of live and serenity too.
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