Masking Your Emotions with Prescription Pills and Heroin

True Stories of Addiction: Kylie

Kylie started her journey of addiction at a young age. She thought she had her addiction under control but failed to stay clean and sober when she tried to clean up her act. At just 15 years of age she was introduced to the 12-step program. She was young and did not understand the importance of it all – she did not take the program seriously or take suggestion from people who have experience in recovery. Subsequently, she kept getting loaded.

Just because she was getting high and drunk didn’t mean she steered away from the 12-step program like many others do. She would still go to 12-step meetings to try and understand how the program worked. With the knowledge that she gained from the program Kylie came to her senses and tried to get sober many times but still couldn’t. The longest she stayed sober was about 4 months. During those four months, she was miserable.

She was miserable because she was not following the guidelines the 12-step program sets out for us. Kylie would isolate herself and stay away from people; she would still attend meetings but that only lasted a few weeks at most, because she would have panic attacks if she was surrounded by large groups of people. Since Kylie was not working the steps or attending meetings she ended up getting loaded again.

Addiction Took Over

It wasn’t until about a year ago she decided she was willing to do the work to stay sober for good. It was not easy for her to get to where she is today. During that year, she was still using but then detox immediately after because she was determined to get sober. Kylie did not get help from treatment centers or any detox facilities, she did it on her own. Not attending treatment made things more difficult for her and her sobriety.

Kylie went to her father’s house to detox from heroin and was able to stay clean off heroin for 6 months. Not having the heroin in her life made her go crazy- she didn’t know how to cope so she turned to cocaine and alcohol. She was not thinking about going to a 12-step fellowship and the alcohol and cocaine was the only way she knew how to stay off the heroin without the help of others in recovery.

Because Kylie was not working a 12-step program the day came where she was introduced to her old friend heroin once again. Using heroin would make Kylie sick, so she would get clean for about two days, but then returned to heroin as soon as the pain of withdrawal got too intense for her to handle. This miserable cycle went on for about 5 years. Finally, the day came where she was done and did not know what else to do so she went back into the 12-step fellowship.

Time to Fight the Addiction

Kylie was serious about her recovery. She started doing what was suggested of her and got a sponsor. When she got a sponsor, she did not hesitate to start working the steps right away. The steps call for honesty and Kylie failed to be honest on her fourth step and ended up relapsing.

Kylie finally gave up and told her sponsor all that was on her mind. Doing so allowed her to move past the fourth step and her recovery journey took off. She was able to have a spiritual experience and the mental obsession to use drugs and alcohol was removed. She was finally free from the thoughts that used to haunt her while she was using drugs.

Since she has been sober she has been able to get a job working in treatment. It is Kylies goal to use her experience to help others recover from alcoholism and addiction. She is more than grateful to be where she is in her life today. She can’t comprehend how she already had 9 months clean and sober- her life is just that good. She now has the sense of freedom she craved her whole life. If you know anyone that is masking their emotions with drugs or alcohol give us a call. We are here to help in any way we possibly can: (866) 578-7471

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  1. Using drugs to mask your emotions will surely fall into drug addiction. You might not feel it at first because for you it is just a habit, but your body is beginning to be drug dependent.

  2. Many psychoactive drugs increase social behavior and enhance social interactions, which may, in turn, increase their attractiveness to users.

  3. That’s a wonderful experience you’ve introduced about how Kylie spent her childhood life simply being addicted. But latter realized her mistakes to gain recovery through sober and xD.

  4. Interventions like this will surely give hope to those who are in dire need of help to get rid from chaos. Hoping for this to reach millions of people.

  5. At some point, yes people do hide emotions because they are afraid of changes or they don’t really know what to do. the great thing she has finally made up her mind. One must be brave so that change will be better. No need to do it drastically.

  6. I’m so happy to hear Kylie can recover from her addiction, it’s hard but she made it. So, it’s gonna be a good motivation for other people as well.

  7. Addiction Takes over is pretty much what happens. The drug or addiction can start harmless but one day you will just see yourself at the back seat with the addiction as the driver. In this drug game you always are the looser.

  8. Kylie is definitely a fighter. So many trials until her self determination, willpower and and an external entity helped her eventually pull through. I’m glad with her success story. Keep shining brighter.

  9. Identifying that you need help will hasten your victory over the addiction. Be it drug or alcohol, it is important to know that you need help and sincerely seek one.

  10. Addiction started in so many ways and here we see another common cause, been alone, isolating oneself from people. I just really love the part that kylie getting all tbe help.

  11. Kylie was serious? This is the first time I see an addict moving so strong towards the light. I am so happy she found it. Not everyone could be this focus

  12. Wow, what a strong woman. I just hope many people can see the need for this change, addiction whatsoever is a disease and should be taken seriously

  13. At that age Kylie was young and may not have been able to comprehend the 12 steps program. I am happy she was able to muster the strength to go on with the treatment towards recovery.

  14. Masking of emotions is very dangerous when you have someone with whom you can share problem.
    The addiction of these pills are dangerous too.

  15. These stories are really very much inspirational for all of us.People should understand that Addiction is not the solution of any problem.If we want to solve any problem then we have to fight with that.

  16. Drug addiction must be a difficult situation for anyone going through it. Kylie at 15 didn’t understand the necessity for the therapy or program. However she fought hard and won the battle against the addiction. congrats to her.

  17. Such Weird came to me for first time. But we should appericate kyle. You are truely fighter. The drugs takes out many life but maintain to overcome. Hope for the better future.

  18. I am so happy for Kylie, thanks for sharing your story it would surely help those still under the influence. Thanks for sharing this inspirational story.

  19. Masking emotion with prescription drug is not recommended,the worst way is ,if you get rehab but you are not focus on that 12 steps missing step even one only impact your speed and succes recovery ,thank you kayle for your bravely sharing

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