When Nicole was young she lived a very active life she was on the captain on her soccer team, and on the honor roll. Still she always felt like something was missing, she had this strong curiosity pulling her to look for something.
Even before she started using she had people approaching her to find drugs for them.
“I was asked ‘hey can you get any OCs?’ I was like a really innocent soccer player. I was like what is OCs? And why are people asking me? Then about two weeks later it became like ‘Hey you’re in highschool, I’m not, can you get me some weed?’”
She started smoking marijuana and that became her favorite, even down to the strand that she first tried.
“I started off not too good, smoking the favorite. Then it just led me, like what else can be a favorite?”
Smoking became a staple in Nicole’s everyday life.
“It was my first love, besides soccer … [It was like] there’s something I can do every day and it makes me go to work and it makes people love me, I can spend my money on something.”
Nicole was one of the few 17-year-old servers, she was making around $100 a day in tips.
“My mom would always find little lighters and that’s how the secret came out. She would find the lighters in my pants because she would do my laundry … I would tell her ‘oh it’s for lighting the birthday cake at work.’”
She describes this as the start of her manipulative behavior.
“The excess of the amount I had gotten to was about 27 blunts a day, before the chaos of the harder stuff.”
Getting Deeper
While working as a server Nicole got a severe breast infection and was hospitalized.
“They wanted to give me Percocet, once again I had no idea what Percocet was. When I had torn my MCL my mom had given me one Vicodin and I never saw the bottle and I never cared. Getting Percocet was not enough.”
Nicole threatened to rip out her IV, all she wanted to do was go home and smoke her Marijuana. She began to threaten to kill the doctors, and because of this episode, she was sent to get a physiological evaluation.
The first session was fairly normal, then she was prescribed Xanax and the doctor began to tell her that she was schizophrenic, depressed and had many other mental disorders. With these diagnoses she was prescribed a lot of different medications.
“Well I started to believe it, and I started to think that all I needed was meds … then it became, my friends like my meds, I like my meds, I can make money off my meds.”
While the intent of the physiological evaluation started off with good intentions, it quickly transformed.
“The whole let’s go in and get you better became, I want this. They would literally say ‘What do you want Nicole?’ ‘What do you need today?’ ‘What milligrams?’ ‘How many do you need to take in a day?’ and it became really manipulative.
Within a year she was selling seven of her narcotic and abusing them.
“I was up to about 30 or 40 narcotics a day and that was without the partying function of it.”
On top of the narcotics, Nicole’s drink started to become more extreme as well.
“It started at 17, homeboy go get me a couple Sparks and some Four Locos. Then it became finishing handles of Captain Morgan with just the boyfriend. I always had to have that boyfriend.”
She was using a lot of narcotics, smoking a lot of marijuana and selling a lot in the process.
“I’ve learned now that not the amount, it’s wat it did to the soul.”
Her mom found out that she was using and cut her off, which them pushed Nicole further into selling drugs to support her lifestyle.
“That’s really when the Ecstasy phase it, that was a big rock bottom for me when it came to pills.”
Nicole would get so high that she would have to turn on the water in her bathroom, and watch the screen saver on her laptop to get out of what she calls a “Ecstasy, blunt coma”
The day after Halloween she got her first DUI, since she had prescriptions for the narcotics, she was only charged for the Marijuana.
“When I parked in my works parking lot five [cop] cars came out. During that I was in denial ‘You guys are wrong’ … I was so out of it, [even when I was] fighting in court for that, I had my flip flop on the podium. I didn’t even know this until years later.”
Nicole ended up having to serve one day in jail.
“All my step-dad wanted was to be able to take his daughter in to jail, because she wouldn’t go in. For Father’s Day, that’s all he wanted.”
That was a big eye opener for her.
Recovery
Nicole started going to her DUI classes.
“Recovery is very very hard.”
Like a lot of people, Nicole wasn’t really ready for sobriety when she first started going to her DUI classes and her meetings.
“I’d be on shroom powder at DUI classes, I was not at all serious.”
Nicole ended up pregnant while she was using alcohol and Heroin.
“He was my biggest prize but I had to learn that I am. When I first went to rehab I was like ‘I’m getting clean for my son, don’t you see?’ and that’s not reality.”
Her baby was born healthy, Nicole was clean for around 5 and a half months.
Full Circle
While she was staying at a friend’s house she went searching for Marijuana, what she ended up finding probably saved her life.
She had given up her search and was sitting on a curb in front of a hot dog shop when “I hear people talking about how they got 4 or 5 months sober … I see people laughing and giggling. I go in and I’m like ‘What? What is this?’ … I waited for a table to clear up and I sat by myself and got swarmed with people.”
What Nicole didn’t know, but quickly found out, was that this group of people were from a recovery organization named Full Circle.
“I don’t quite remember my first few days but I do remember when I got picked up. The gentleman in the front of the car … got in the back and puts the newcomer in the front. ‘You deserve this’ [he said] I’, like what?”
That was just the start.
“Full circle strives for getting connected one on one and loving the soul … How I got sober in the beginning was my first week getting everyone’s number. What worked for me is, if I wanted to hit up someone weird, a dude, a dealer, go do something crazy, [I’d] say hey what’s up to my [Full Circle] friends.”
Nicole showed up every single day to stay sober, even when she was living far from Full Circle and had to take public transit.
“It’s not such a Godly program, but if you find God you’re in the right place. We are our brother’s keeper, that’s a saying we use. I was meant to live for somebody else, so they can live for someone else.”
Today she helps others by giving back.
“I got in and I got loved on … Today when I’m at that hot dog joint, because we go to once a week, I find the person who is the sickest, who can afford a burger but wants one, ‘hey let me get you a burger, let’s sit down.’’’
Nicole is now 8 months sober.
“It’s about rocking it, we were crazy people out there so we can be just as crazy and have fun sober. I know I am.”
56 comments
Oh goodness, such a crazy story. I wonder how common it is to go on this type of path, starting small and escalating. It’s crazy that she stumbled into a recovery group — very serendipitous. All the best on the journey.
This stories are eye opener believe me. Even as we dont see much wrong in smoking marijuana, it opens doors for stronger drugs that can destroy ones career
This is great. Am so happy she got up after falling in that damaging trap called addiction. I wish you total recovering from the past.
Wow, quite an insane story. I can’t help thinking about the fact that it is so basic to go in this sort of way.
I´m glad for Nicole, she found the full circle friends program at the right time and that helped her to change her life for good.
This is another crazy one. Drug addiction is’t easy for those involved. I hope you will come out of totally and be totally free as you remain sober for a long time. Good luck on your jourmey
As with everything a small doze can lead to something deeper. In Drugs it is the same too as a sip or a try grows until you wake up one day and find yourself in its clutches. I have seen people sell even their souls for it. Addiction is a disease and deserves to be taken seriously.
Over here at our area, the drug is the main used. It is clear that it is the gateway to other drugs.
Nicole help people by giving back, this sound very interesting but this was a really depressing story. Good that Nicole pull through against all odds
Every drug addicts starts small, just that little door will yield great danger. I just pray all facing drug issues heal up
What a triumphant transformation for Nicole! I can see how Full Circle could play such a pivotal role in recovery with such a loving support system in place. Sadly, drug use triggers psychosis, but thankfully the people dealing with addiction or mental health issues have fascinating stories and introspection to share. Nicole’s journey definitely serves as a great model for those in search of meaning and justification.
This story is very interesting as Nicholas eventually gains his freedom from drug abuse. I salute her courage. Bravo!
I agree marijuana is gateway to hard drug, everything start from small to big , that’s why don’t try even marijuana
This is a very pathetic story about Nicole. Marijuana intake or addiction causes so many problems an challenges . I am so happy she eventually saw what it does and took the right path to recovery.
It’s really best not to even try these drugs coz you’d always want more that’ll would keep creating more damages. I’m happy Nicole got through this and recovered well enough. Thanks Detoxtorehab.
Drug addiction is a very dangerous lifestyle. However, Detox is correcting the ills of society through this.
I am so happy for Nicole about her recovery. The main essence of recovery is to find hope and purpose to get back on track with life.
This is an inspirational story. Very touching that she got introduced to drugs and even had to go deep into it. Though her recovery wasn’t easy for her coupled with her pregnancy but glad she overcome the situation in the end.
Marijuana itself is a hard drug. This is because it’s contains some components that makes it a hard drug.
Marijuana itself is a hard drug. This is because it’s contains some components that makes it a hard drug.
Marijuana is a stepping stone for every drug addict. Glory be to God that Nicole finally overcame this menace.
You know it is crazy how these whole addict starts. It generate from small piece of enjoyment to something consuming, nicole sorry is really sad and at the same time inspirational.
Nicole Story is quite an emotional and inspirational one. I’m so happy the recovery process really worked on Nicole. Nice Job detox.
Nicole experienced Sobriety and It made her Recovery Journey a Great one to remember and motivate others.
Nicole Story is an emotional one I must say I’m so glad Nicole is doing just fine now. Thank you detox.
Am happy she’s able to recover after starting from the smaller drugs and moved to the bigger ones. It’s good detox is there to help out
Addiction is a killer disease. Nicole was favoured by God and this is why she can testify.
Naivety, then curiosity, then enthusiasm, and gradually addiction begins to metamorphose. Parents have a responsibility to educate their kids on drug abuse and the consequences that may follow. It’s expensive leaving kids to chances. It’s thrilling hearing Nicole’s story.
Nicole’s marijuana’s experience was a pathetic one. The wonderful part of her story was the victory she had.
Nicole’s love for marijuana almost ruined her life..and then abusing narcotics ..and the fact that her drinking was becoming excessive..I’m glad she found help..drug destroys
Glad Nicole finally found recovery and came full circle. I wish her and her son all the best! Very motivating story for those that wish to overcome addiction.
I agree as it is affordable especially in a third world state, not to mention its proven medical benefits? Granted in moderation. Never the less the escalation process will always be there and MJ paves the way for it more likely than not.
I hope you will come out of totally and be totally free as you remain sober for a long time. Good luck on your jourmey. I have seen people sell even their souls for it. Addiction is a disease and deserves to be taken seriously. Thanks for sharing this blog
Glad to see Nicole recovered. Being among good people helped him to recover.
Nicole story is the story for a lot of addict. When once you are all about marijuana you miss it totally because it is always a way to very hard drugs.
Thank God Nicole found the full circle organisation when she was at her lowest point, you can’t find fulfillment while doing drugs. Doing drugs have a way of taking over one’s life, thank God for her recovery. Detox to rehab thank you for sharing this amazing story of recovery.
you wake up one day and find yourself in its clutches. thankfully the people dealing with addiction or mental health issues have fascinating stories. It is crazy that she stumbled into a recovery group.
Thank you Detax to rehab for sharing these type of stories with all of us.These stories are really very much inspirational for many people who are addicted with something and try to recover from that.
Actually pot is so much used as a first drug. It is very common in almost all places. It has become as if it is a must use substance.
Such a great sportswomen personality get addicted to these things is really bad. That’s the reason environment matters , how the people around you.
I really enjoyed the determination Nicole had to get clean for her baby when she discovered she preggy, despite the fact that marijuana wants to end up her career from the very start. Addiction of drugs always comes with harm either on our health or our career.
Congratulations Nicole on your recovery. I am happy
Addiction turns a person to something different, that even some family members and lived ones wouldn’t want to relate with. Nichole was fortunate that she didn’t go crazy while she was on the drugs and I hope she has the strength to remain clean.
D drugs lead one no where. When you think you have control over it, that is when the crave for a higher and stronger drug comes in. Nichole’s couldn’t see herself going without drugs. But I am glad for that turning point in her life. Something must make you want to stop drugs, and I am glad she went to rehab because of her son, to be a better person.
Indeed, many people innocently start using marijuana thinking they won’t delve into harder drugs. More often than not that is never the case
It always starts with one innocent puff. Before you know it, you’re using all manner of hard drugs.
For some, even cigarettes can act as the gateway drug to harder stuff. It’s safest to never try anything that alters our mental state.
Some people are better at resisting addiction than others. Sometimes I feel like it is actually a genetic thing but I might be wrong.
Her story is very sad especially since she had no idea what she was getting into. The most important thing is that she is on the path to recovery now
I hope that one day you will definitely come out of it, but it is not that easy to get rid of drug addiction. it is very harmful for the body. Thanks for sharing this blog.
The title says it all, when once you start taking marijuana you are on the way to taking hard substances. The way out is to flee from it to avoid a deeper addiction.
Is good, after Nicole’s drug abuse troubled life of smoking marijuana. She found peace later on after seeking rehabilitation from drug abuse.
Oh goodness, such a crazy story. I wonder how common it is to go on this type of path, starting small and escalating. Actually, pot is so much used as a first drug. It is very common in almost all places. It has become as if it is a must-use substance.
Well, she was making $100 per day and I guess she wasted all that money on drugs. It would have been much better if she would have saved that money and spent that money for the right cause. However, she found the recovery she deserved.
It was an early age that Nicole was exposed to this kind of environment and no one can blame her. The good news is, her story now can help other people come to choose a better path for their life. Keep inspiring Nicole. 🙂
Drug addition could really ruin a person’s life. The main aim of recovery is find the true essence of life. The use of Marijuana and Nacortics is extremely dangerous to human psychological health. Congrats Nicole, your story is an encouragement to others
This is a triumphant transformation for Nicole! I can see how Full Circle could play such a pivotal role in recovery with such a loving support system in place. But thankfully to the people dealing with addiction or mental health issues have fascinating stories and introspection to share.